10.

Finally, It Hits 10

Happy Birthday

And 

Happy Birthday

2017

再多10个小时就要回去吉隆坡了

一个我又爱又恨的城市

这次特地驾车回来过年

因为要搬一些家庭用具回吉隆坡的新房子

妈妈说等了3年，终于建好了

装修应该这个月会完成

我也应该这个月会入伙

其实对这间家没有很大的期待

毕竟当初是应和妈妈的要求才买下的

身边的人也开始送上压力

说事业有了

房子也有了

应该是时候找一位女主人了

爱情

从很渴望到很失望

现在应该是绝望和无望了吧

毕竟在事业上刚刚换了工作岗位

5月还要考那个“渣打银行家”的考试

这个考试我是一点信心都没有

还真的不像我

3个月前换了部门，升上了“Head“的职位

离开旧部门之前，全世界千方百计的留我

而我当时只想着要当一位最年轻的”Head“

毕竟当初设下这目标的限期是在30岁前

如今我做到了

但这个位子真的不好做

或许应该说比我想象中的难很多

也可能是我不够本事

才3个月就已经有要退下来的念头

同事们都劝说叫我呆个至少1年左右吧

说真的

1年好像很长

我真的不知道可不可以顶到1年

这几天的同学聚会

问到我目前的status时

我都是很循例的回答”单身/等你介绍“

听到这样的答复时大家都会很不约而同地提起你的名字

我也只是给个微笑带过

有位朋友说我就是因为这样而单身这么久

坦白说

这句话有让我思考了很久

我也不懂是不是

或许继续为自己找借口会让大家过得更好吧

不懂

惆怅

年纪越大越没有心过年

今年才拜了2次年

收到的红包用10只手指算都还嫌多

新年衣更不用提，都没有买

这30年真的过得很快

想想一下

好像都还没来得及看清楚自己

。

9.

Happy Birthday

Have a Great Purple Thursday & Blissful Birthday

Incident That I Worried the Most has Happened

It's 12th and I am still in Kuala Terengganu.

Yeah, still in Kuala Terengganu.

Was supposed to accompany my mom to K.L.yesterday as she is supposed to fly to China today.

And I will then finish my block leave officially.

But the incident that I worried the most has happened.

My dad was admitted into emergency yesterday morning.

Needless to say, I have cancelled the flight to K.L. and so do my mom, cancelled the flight to China.

My dad's call woke me up at 9.30 a.m.

He was in his office and he called, saying that he wanted us to fetch him to hospital as he felt uncomfortable

I do not have the transportation as my mom was out to saloon.

And unfortunately we could not reach her because her iPhone keep searching for network.

That's the most fucked up error, happened at the most fucked up time.    

My dad then walked down to the clinic, took some medicine and get a referral letter for admission into hospital. Many thanks to his friend, Mr. Tan who sent him to emergency thereafter immediately.

I was prepared to take a cab, to rush to hospital but luckily my mom called in as she saw my SMS. (Luckily the iPhone wasn't that fucked up as it still can receive SMS).

Reached hospital and was informed by Mr. Tan that my dad was suspected for a minor heart attack

We weren't allowed to go into emergency (SOP of the hospital)

But luckily Mrs. Tan came in a little while and after the casual introduction, she just walked into the emergency without any interruptions from any parties (then only I was informed by my mom that Mrs. Tan was a former nurse in the hospital).

She saw my dad, condition is stable and she walked out and comforted us, explained all the readings that she saw in the machine.

Many thanks to Mr. Tan & Mrs. Tan for the kind assistance.

My dad's condition is stable now and he has to stay in the cardiology ward for 5 days (Again, SOP for cardiology patient) for observation. 

Not too worry as he can actually walk, talk, eat & sleep.

But I never expect the incident that I worried the most has happened in the end of 2015.

My dad appeared to be the most healthiest person in my family as he has been taking care of his diet carefully with frequent exercise.

In fact, he did not felt pain in the chest and he was only cold sweating with nausea feel during the time of attack.

So now, it's the time that we have to focus on his health and I pray hard that he can be discharged ASAP after which we shall arrange for a checking in Private Hospital.

Over the years, every time when I come back to K.T. (since working in K.L.), I will realize that my parents are growing old.

I do aware of the possibility of the deterioration in their health condition but I never expect it will happen at this time

Or perhaps I should come back and work in K.T so that I can be nearer to them?

But then how's the new house in K.L.? As every family member is hoping for it's completion.

And how about my career which has just been well established?

Or I should convinced both of them to retire and stay with us in K.L? But this is very unlikely as I understand perfectly the mindset of the old generation in K.T.

Wow, everything is just a question mark now.

Mom was a bit disappointed as she has been expecting and planned for the trip for some times.

Just hope that my reimbursement for her travel fees can fully, if not partly relieve her disappointment.    

As I always said,

I will be able to earn money but I would not be able to earn a family.

 

Sincerely, 

Thanks God for not letting the heart attack to happen during my dad's driving journey to his office.

Thanks God for not letting the heart attack to happen after me & mom off to K.L.

Thanks Mr. Tan & Mrs. Tan for all the assistance given.

Thanks my boss, David for his kind concern and advises.

Thanks to all family members and friends for the kind concern.

Thanks to all doctors & nurses for the care given.

 

8.

It's 8 Now and I Am Not Sure How Long This Can Persist

Birthday Happy

Happy Birthday

Have a Great Tuesday

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As usual

Last night in K.T.

It's the second time back to K.T. this year

Happy Mother's Day to the loved one

Counting down 6 hours

And I hate K.L. and the working place

Things are getting worst and I think it's the time

Nice gathering with parents

Thanks for your love and the great foods

K.T. is still the best place 

With the old drama and old memories

Nice gathering with Wei Loon, Wei Keong, Huang Yao & Pei Ting this time

Thanks for the great time with all kind of sharing

Appreciate

Just realized that there is a hard period

My apology and may everything goes smooth

Please take a great care

Happy CNY 2015

Yes

Happy CNY 2015 to everyone that I know and I don't know

Tonight will be my last night in Terengganu, at least for this quarter

And how I wish that I can celebrate my love for you, Tonight

Hahaha

It's a 2 weeks holiday and time is deemed to past very slow this time

Feeling towards CNY is getting diluted and I am not sure whether it's caused by aging

In fact I only got my first Ang Pow in the 3rd day of CNY

And the 1st & 2nd days well utilized - sleeping

As usual

CNY is a good time to gather with family

But it's kinda sad to see them turn older as time passes

Or perhaps this is the so called life cycle

Mom said we will probably have our CNY in KL next year if the new house complete by year end

So let's see how

Got no choice to brought back the company laptop

And I really dislike working during my holiday

And I am scared of going back tomorrow to face the new month

Several appointments lining up, being internal or external

Keep telling myself

Wait for the bonus and if possible another promotion

Yes I am hunger for it

The construction of the new house should be completed soon

Substructure has been completed and I am expecting a full completion by year end

And financial commitment will be increasing thereafter

It was a great feeling on Wednesday night

3 of us, Pei Ting & Shu Fen went to Star Anise but it was closed

And Pei Ting called her Brother in Law who was in the shop

Considering our aggressiveness for a drinking session

We were allowed to go in even though they are closed

Thanks for granting us a private session and the cakes as complimentary

Last night was a memorable night if we dated it back to several years ago

Not sure if tonight would be a sleepable night but I hope it does

Anyway

Happy CNY to those I have not wish personally