10.

Finally, It Hits 10

Happy Birthday

And 

Happy Birthday

2017

再多10个小时就要回去吉隆坡了

一个我又爱又恨的城市

这次特地驾车回来过年

因为要搬一些家庭用具回吉隆坡的新房子

妈妈说等了3年，终于建好了

装修应该这个月会完成

我也应该这个月会入伙

其实对这间家没有很大的期待

毕竟当初是应和妈妈的要求才买下的

身边的人也开始送上压力

说事业有了

房子也有了

应该是时候找一位女主人了

爱情

从很渴望到很失望

现在应该是绝望和无望了吧

毕竟在事业上刚刚换了工作岗位

5月还要考那个“渣打银行家”的考试

这个考试我是一点信心都没有

还真的不像我

3个月前换了部门，升上了“Head“的职位

离开旧部门之前，全世界千方百计的留我

而我当时只想着要当一位最年轻的”Head“

毕竟当初设下这目标的限期是在30岁前

如今我做到了

但这个位子真的不好做

或许应该说比我想象中的难很多

也可能是我不够本事

才3个月就已经有要退下来的念头

同事们都劝说叫我呆个至少1年左右吧

说真的

1年好像很长

我真的不知道可不可以顶到1年

这几天的同学聚会

问到我目前的status时

我都是很循例的回答”单身/等你介绍“

听到这样的答复时大家都会很不约而同地提起你的名字

我也只是给个微笑带过

有位朋友说我就是因为这样而单身这么久

坦白说

这句话有让我思考了很久

我也不懂是不是

或许继续为自己找借口会让大家过得更好吧

不懂

惆怅

年纪越大越没有心过年

今年才拜了2次年

收到的红包用10只手指算都还嫌多

新年衣更不用提，都没有买

这30年真的过得很快

想想一下

好像都还没来得及看清楚自己

。

9.

Happy Birthday

Have a Great Purple Thursday & Blissful Birthday

Incident That I Worried the Most has Happened

It's 12th and I am still in Kuala Terengganu.

Yeah, still in Kuala Terengganu.

Was supposed to accompany my mom to K.L.yesterday as she is supposed to fly to China today.

And I will then finish my block leave officially.

But the incident that I worried the most has happened.

My dad was admitted into emergency yesterday morning.

Needless to say, I have cancelled the flight to K.L. and so do my mom, cancelled the flight to China.

My dad's call woke me up at 9.30 a.m.

He was in his office and he called, saying that he wanted us to fetch him to hospital as he felt uncomfortable

I do not have the transportation as my mom was out to saloon.

And unfortunately we could not reach her because her iPhone keep searching for network.

That's the most fucked up error, happened at the most fucked up time.    

My dad then walked down to the clinic, took some medicine and get a referral letter for admission into hospital. Many thanks to his friend, Mr. Tan who sent him to emergency thereafter immediately.

I was prepared to take a cab, to rush to hospital but luckily my mom called in as she saw my SMS. (Luckily the iPhone wasn't that fucked up as it still can receive SMS).

Reached hospital and was informed by Mr. Tan that my dad was suspected for a minor heart attack

We weren't allowed to go into emergency (SOP of the hospital)

But luckily Mrs. Tan came in a little while and after the casual introduction, she just walked into the emergency without any interruptions from any parties (then only I was informed by my mom that Mrs. Tan was a former nurse in the hospital).

She saw my dad, condition is stable and she walked out and comforted us, explained all the readings that she saw in the machine.

Many thanks to Mr. Tan & Mrs. Tan for the kind assistance.

My dad's condition is stable now and he has to stay in the cardiology ward for 5 days (Again, SOP for cardiology patient) for observation. 

Not too worry as he can actually walk, talk, eat & sleep.

But I never expect the incident that I worried the most has happened in the end of 2015.

My dad appeared to be the most healthiest person in my family as he has been taking care of his diet carefully with frequent exercise.

In fact, he did not felt pain in the chest and he was only cold sweating with nausea feel during the time of attack.

So now, it's the time that we have to focus on his health and I pray hard that he can be discharged ASAP after which we shall arrange for a checking in Private Hospital.

Over the years, every time when I come back to K.T. (since working in K.L.), I will realize that my parents are growing old.

I do aware of the possibility of the deterioration in their health condition but I never expect it will happen at this time

Or perhaps I should come back and work in K.T so that I can be nearer to them?

But then how's the new house in K.L.? As every family member is hoping for it's completion.

And how about my career which has just been well established?

Or I should convinced both of them to retire and stay with us in K.L? But this is very unlikely as I understand perfectly the mindset of the old generation in K.T.

Wow, everything is just a question mark now.

Mom was a bit disappointed as she has been expecting and planned for the trip for some times.

Just hope that my reimbursement for her travel fees can fully, if not partly relieve her disappointment.    

As I always said,

I will be able to earn money but I would not be able to earn a family.

 

Sincerely, 

Thanks God for not letting the heart attack to happen during my dad's driving journey to his office.

Thanks God for not letting the heart attack to happen after me & mom off to K.L.

Thanks Mr. Tan & Mrs. Tan for all the assistance given.

Thanks my boss, David for his kind concern and advises.

Thanks to all family members and friends for the kind concern.

Thanks to all doctors & nurses for the care given.

 

8.

It's 8 Now and I Am Not Sure How Long This Can Persist

Birthday Happy

Happy Birthday

Have a Great Tuesday

Untitled

As usual

Last night in K.T.

It's the second time back to K.T. this year

Happy Mother's Day to the loved one

Counting down 6 hours

And I hate K.L. and the working place

Things are getting worst and I think it's the time

Nice gathering with parents

Thanks for your love and the great foods

K.T. is still the best place 

With the old drama and old memories

Nice gathering with Wei Loon, Wei Keong, Huang Yao & Pei Ting this time

Thanks for the great time with all kind of sharing

Appreciate

Just realized that there is a hard period

My apology and may everything goes smooth

Please take a great care

Happy CNY 2015

Yes

Happy CNY 2015 to everyone that I know and I don't know

Tonight will be my last night in Terengganu, at least for this quarter

And how I wish that I can celebrate my love for you, Tonight

Hahaha

It's a 2 weeks holiday and time is deemed to past very slow this time

Feeling towards CNY is getting diluted and I am not sure whether it's caused by aging

In fact I only got my first Ang Pow in the 3rd day of CNY

And the 1st & 2nd days well utilized - sleeping

As usual

CNY is a good time to gather with family

But it's kinda sad to see them turn older as time passes

Or perhaps this is the so called life cycle

Mom said we will probably have our CNY in KL next year if the new house complete by year end

So let's see how

Got no choice to brought back the company laptop

And I really dislike working during my holiday

And I am scared of going back tomorrow to face the new month

Several appointments lining up, being internal or external

Keep telling myself

Wait for the bonus and if possible another promotion

Yes I am hunger for it

The construction of the new house should be completed soon

Substructure has been completed and I am expecting a full completion by year end

And financial commitment will be increasing thereafter

It was a great feeling on Wednesday night

3 of us, Pei Ting & Shu Fen went to Star Anise but it was closed

And Pei Ting called her Brother in Law who was in the shop

Considering our aggressiveness for a drinking session

We were allowed to go in even though they are closed

Thanks for granting us a private session and the cakes as complimentary

Last night was a memorable night if we dated it back to several years ago

Not sure if tonight would be a sleepable night but I hope it does

Anyway

Happy CNY to those I have not wish personally

7.

Its Another Year and Its 7

Happy Birthday & Birthday Happy

May Everything Go Smooth For You & Wishes Come True

27

Perhaps it's too late for this wish

Happy Mid Autumn Festival

The only regret for this year's Mid Autumn Festival was the inability to get the Jelly Mooncakes

Just came back from Labuan 

Attended a best friend's wedding

It was a great event 

The very first "sister" position taken by me

Well

The age of 27

The age of complication

You would not understand the stress than a man needs to face at this age

Palm Beach Resort was a beautiful place

Thought of getting a good rest there but unfortunately failed to do so

There were so many things appeared in my mind

Thinking of the next station of my life cycle

Shall I leave this place???

Current status: Active job seeker

Yeah

I am actively looking for a job

The jump for this time is very crucial

And I would say it's the most critical decision that I have to make in my career life

Decided to run away from Commercial Banking

And I am keen to explore Credit Risk / Corporate Finance

Pray hard and all the best to me

As I said

The age of 27 is the age of complication for a man

Family

Career

Relationship

All in the mind

Family has been supportive thus far

The only concern is the distance with parents

It's getting far and far and I am hoping that my action would not let you flustered

No worry and I will take care of myself

Getting tired with the current career life

Many changes after the merger and I really can't suit myself with the transition period

As I always mention

I stay with the boss and not the Bank

Since I can't take the change

Then I shall change myself

I am sorry if I disappoint you

Thanks for granting me the opportunity

Being single at the age of 27 has definitely put me in a quandary position

Waiting and I am still waiting

Perhaps I am not qualify yet

They said I should have move on and I hate myself for being so stubborn  

As I always said

I am always here

Offering the very best of mine to you

And you are always the first in my heart

The Prince and the Princess Live Happily Thereafter

The Moment

Counting down 2 hours to go back to the City which I hated so much

It's definitely worth to drive for 15 hours this time to come back to KT

Met up with Gary, the vocalist of Gr@yatmosphere

Great sharing about his journey in the entertainment world 

Great Karaoke session which we missed so much

Great Starcraft session which we used to have last time whenever we finished band jamming

Special thanks to Gary and Ino for the great memory and I wish you two a bright future

The first half of the year ended too soon

Nothing much to expect in career except the promotion as Senior RM

Yeah

I am hoping for that title desperately

Wish me all the best

Wish me a safe journey later

Thanks for granting me a memorable moment

I will never forget

The moment when the car window was rolled down with the enjoyment of windy weather

Appreciate

The Journey

Another post after 2 months

This year doesn't seem to be a good year for me

At least for the first half

Just contradicted with what peoples said before CNY

Or maybe I was the exceptional???

I don't know

Was whacked by GM during last week's team meeting

I can't answered when he asked me about my target

And his reaction was - the youngest and brightest star in the division doesn't know his number

Yeah

I didn't know my number

I worked blindly

And I disappointed everyone   

Great!!!

Group CEO from London visited Malaysia yesterday

And it was my great honor for getting an invitation to join his town hall

Kinda impressive with his talking

We don't need more leaders in the Bank

We need more leadership in the Bank

Yeah

Absolutely agreed

Came back to Terengganu for 2 days

Preserving the traditional Chinese culture

Going to borrow Dad's golf set to K.L.

Yeah

I am going to start the golfing journey

It's after an insight gained from a senior where he said - 

We should learn at least a new skill set a year

So you told me to expand my network

And I am doing this for you!!!

I always thought that 22nd was a lucky date as I was born on that day

Unfortunately 

It wasn't

El Cerdo

To put it in memory

Never expect that the barrier was so fucking hard to be broke off

The rapport

The mutual understanding

All doesn't play in role in the consideration

And I thought I have hit the standard of the perfection

If not 100%, then at least 80%

Unfortunately

I made a mistake

Sometimes things were just beyond my control

And I will always remember the sentence

"You deserve a better one"

It was indeed the best damn sentence that I ever heard

Then I realized one thing

I was all this while alone

Just because I was waiting for someone

Thanks for being a motivation throughout these years

The Journey 

Was indeed a great and challenging one

And I believe you have seen my efforts

The matured personal development

Yeah

I am closer to myself

But still far from you

What Shall I Do

To Turn You and I Into the Picture???

K.T. in K.T.

Yeah

I am back to K.T.

I need to admit that it's definitely not a good time to take an earlier CNY leave

Few big cases exploded

Had a hectic life and I spent more than 14 hours per day in the Bank recently

Anyhow

Issues remained unsolved 

Got a salary adjustment

Not up to my expectation but within my satisfactory threshold

At least my efforts were not wasted

Got a Tier 1 rating by management too

So hope for a big fat bonus

Yeah

I work for money

As promised

I ain't gonna let myself lose to it anymore

Bought a house in K.L.

Under construction with 3 years completion period

Yeah

Finally I am in the path of becoming an ordinary person

Contravene to the previous Thor

Full of dreams

As I always said

You may dream in my melody

Perhaps because of aging

I don't even have the CNY mood

I guessed that emotion started a year ago

So

I owned a car

And I owned a house (in the air)

Career wise I think I am there

Perhaps it's time to settle down

Get a girl friend

Enter into a relationship and if we both were in the same world

I shall then call for a bill

So

Becoming an ordinary person

And I am not sure if this is what I want

They said this year is a good year for a Rabbit

I hope for the best

It's CNY and it's time for a gathering

And 

Thought of a sudden

Muar-ian

It has been years I did not face to face wish you all Happy CNY

No worry

You all would never be forgotten

In The Earth of Golds

Happy Chinese New Year

11/11/2013

KT in KT

Kim Thor in Kuala Terengganu

Yeah

I am back to Terengganu for a period of 3 weeks

Many were envy for my extra long block leave 

I would only say

3 weeks block leave does not really compensate my mental injuries for the past 1 year

Initial plan was to get a short trip to the neighborhood countries

But the plan wasn't materialized as I do not know where shall I go

Or perhaps I need some pull factors from someone which has yet to appear in my life

It will be a period of 3 weeks and I have inclined to focus on share investment

Went to 2 stockbroking firms last weeks and gain a lot of insights from those laymen's investors

It has been a long period where I have not pumped some extra cash into the stock market

It was so unusual but I have yet to find any penny shares which were undervalued and yet trigger my interest 

Ooohhh

This is definitely not good

Hopefully I am able to spot few hidden gems and accumulate my wealth together with the team of friends 

There was a newly opened coffee shop in Terengganu

Went there twice

The first time I wanted to order a Flat White but it wasn't available

Hence, I ordered an almost similar Cappuccino

They were using the No. 1 coffee brand in Italy - Lavazza

Nice name but the Barista's skill was relatively poor

The coffee's taste was so diluted

The second time I ordered Cappuccino with double shots and less milk foam

The Barista then came to ask for feedback and I told her the coffee tasted sour

She then unraveled that the reason was due to the double shots 

I then said nothing but in my heart I was shaking my head

Hello, I am a frequent coffee drinker and please don't boo me

Well, I guessed my expectation towards coffee taste has gained up another level

Thus far there were only 2 coffees shop which were able to satisfied my requirements

Illy Espressamente & Espresso Lab

I went to these 2 cafes quite often but regretly

I still yet to have the chance to bring someone special there

Sit down and share the Moment When Love is Foamed

So, waiting & waiting & waiting

Last night remained awake until 3 a.m.

I then went to my own FB page

Scrolled down and read all the old posts dated few years back

Looking at those comments which have made me smile so naturally

The helps, fights, jokes, wishes and etc

Seriously

I miss the moments very much

Went for Karaoke last week

The voice on that particular night was relatively stable

Felt happy that I was able to fetch those high tones persistently

Recently fall in love with Soda Green's songs

Last time used to sing無眠小時後
Recently learn to sing我好想你Honestly, the song was quite difficult to sing but was deemed meaningfulAt least it touches my feeling nowYeahI am missing you at this hourFrom my heartThe two of a kindAnd I am always waiting for the time to officially duet on你被寫在我的歌里
See you in my dream laterAll the best for the brand new working weekA sincere thank you from me

6.

Time Flies and It Hits 6 So Soon

20/10/2013

Wishing You a Happy Birthday

A Great Purple Sunday

Untitled

好像好久没有上来这里了

真的是好久好久了

最近的我

真的过得很不好

这1个月里面发生了很多很多事情

我的Team里面

从原有的9个人

走剩4个人

每个人看见我

都告诉我说还以为你的Team是最稳的一个Team

对

起初我也是这么看

可是

也好啦

走了5个人

他们都往不同的方向

都是爬上更高的位置

昨晚部门帮老板搞Fair Well

大老板要Team里面的每个人

轮流说出对老板的意见

我说

No Worry

I Will Be Taking Over Your Role to Play the Music for Level 21 Every 7 am

对

他最让我佩服的就是

每天最早到银行的就是他

每天的7点到8点45分就会播着他手机里Jazz Music

那一晚

我真的喝了很多

半醉半醒

我看见很多带面具的Fucker

接下来的日子会很难走

其实也已经开始走着了

4月开始

从第一个RM的离开

从我接手她的Portfolio

所有的东西都是我一个人做

没有ARM帮

接下来的Team Manager Meeting

Reporting

我也不懂谁会去Attend

有可能是我

可能不是

这一个月

Attend过的Meeting

都是在里面给人家插

Corporate World就是这样

之前还说不需要担心

至少还有老板帮我顶

算了吧

他们说10月会起我薪水

我听着先

到时候如果来一个5%

我会用行动告诉你

我不需要你的施舍

这个Organization

坦白说

我也没有很高的Expectation

坦白说

之前会这么努力

完全是因为直属上司

因为他的确是我的Role Model

我也很肯定

他真的有帮我争取过

有时我会很Negative

想想说

当初加入时

应该准时9点进工准时6点放工

写Credit Paper时

应该Copy & Paste

说到Financial Analysis

我应该扮白痴

别人称赞我的CCP & CSA时

应该告诉他们我是作弊才Pass的

对

我不是一个Positive Thinker

最近的睡眠也不怎么好了

每到5点就会醒

一醒来想到的东西就是工作

妈妈近期都很少打电话过来

也许她知道我在忙吧

爸爸的Whatapps也没什么回

而且

他每次Whatapps的第一句就是

Hi...Busy??? Meeting???

妈的

我真的是在过着一个人不像人的生活

Please Put in My Name

If Only You Have a Death Note

A Week After

终于

26岁了

今年的生日过得不错

一群朋友

在Tanjung Sepat

吃吃当地的美食

海鲜

芒果

梅菜包

咖啡

百香果

再一次去了东禅诗

规模变得更大了

看到四处都挂着很有意思的佛理

也发现自己好久没有接触到佛法了

心里面不断的哼着小时候在佛学会

一首可爱的佛曲

“菩萨

保佑

保佑我

平安的当和尚”

看这那些佛理

想想

到底我几时才学会放下呢？？？

东禅诗后

继续在Yen Ting家

Domino Pizza

1-300-888-333

Sushi

Cheese Cake

4位女生荣升雀圣

 而我

则让The Edge陪伴着

不错不错

我很享受那一晚

没有烦恼

第天二早上

还有我最喜欢的Big Breakfast + Cappuccino

很可惜的是

时间

永远无法停留在6月22日

今年收到3份生日礼物

风车

让我转转运

Power Bank

让我电一电

G2000

让我帅一帅

Special Thanks to 

Cin Lo 

Yen Ting

Yun Yi

Sheau Torng

Shiang Chi 

Andri

Pui Sin

Evian

9月想Block一个3个星期的假

好想一个人飞出国

Bali

Bangkok

又或者去Batu Pahat找Calix

也不知道可以不可以实现到

毕竟手上的流动资金好像有点问题

因为最近看中了一只股

想奋身下去

工作上没有很顺利

老板

还有另外一个RM辞职了

看来

这个Team就快散了

一直以来

我都很喜欢这个Team

因为我觉得它是SME 3个Team里

最有Team Work的一个Team

我尊重老板的决定

因为我知道他自己也很辛苦

才发现

他之前死命帮我追Confirmation Letter

还有Push我上位

就是要在他临走前帮我铺好我的Career Path

是我自己不争气

算了吧

希望以后还有机会跟他一起工作

谢谢

今天过到很颓废

没有回银行工作

没有喝到咖啡

一整天

就是吃还有睡

无意间

在电脑里发现一些很旧很旧的小说

选了一个来看

“十年的你”

感觉上

好像工作狂的日子比较适合我

同事们都说

再这样狂下去

我肯定找不到女朋友

突然想到Calix的一句话

金土

找个人来爱吧

其实

我找到了啊

可是她不爱我

要我怎样？？？

我也没办法阿

哈哈哈

庆幸的是

不再像以前那样执着

不再因为爱而失眠

真正的学会了大方

妳开心就好

不管妳感受到感受不到

我一直都在

只要能够对妳好

我都会做到
哈哈哈

明明就不喜欢牵手

P/S: 既然明明不喜欢牵手

那就不要逼他牵咯

哈哈哈

A Friend Who Was 1 Day Younger Than Me

We are Beach Boy & Beach Girls from Terengganu 

Thanks for the Companion, Especially in this 3 Years

A Week Before

终于

在这间银行6个月了

刚收到Confirmation Letter

过了Probation Period

有点失望

因为信里面写着No Change in Employment Criteria 

也就是说

薪水还是一样

那天老板在追HR的Confirmation Letter时

还Send了Email给大老板

推荐我升职

结果大老板安排了和我一对一的见面

很奇怪的是

我既然和大老板说

我还没有准备

听到我说我需要再多一点的时间来磨练

他也OK了

说我还年青

不需要勉强自己

很感谢老板的推荐

还有他Pass给我的那个3千8百万的Case

想一想

如果我真的升职的话

我应该是创下银行的记录了

一个最快上位的ARM

也许

我的一声No让他失望了

可是我真的累了

目前的状况是

拿着一份薪水

打两份工

老板暂时还请不到人

所以现在

助理是我

经理也是我

有时候真的会做到和Dulan

可是手还是不停的做

下个月的一对一Session

我一定会要求加薪

不然

我想我应该也顶不了多久了

真的累了

很快的

6月过了一半

再多一个星期就Officially26岁了

感慨一下

今年的生日愿望还是跟3年前的一样

就是知道是不可能实现的

所以才把它放在生日愿望里

等待奇迹的出现

希望今年会收到一张生日卡

一张真心诚意

简简单单的生日卡

不懂几时开始

每年一到了生日

就会很Miserable

老实说

6月22这个日期真的很美

下个星期的今天是怎样的呢？？？

我不知道

26岁了

还有很多很多东西还没有做

还有很多很多地方还没有去

唯一的成就就是在股票投资赚了一点点的钱

我终算没有白费在MMU3年的心血

我想要飞了

9月

让我Block一个3个星期的假吧

刚才收到妈妈的SMS

她说8月是榴莲季节

叫我Balik Kampung

尝试种种的榴莲

我知道她是想我了

没办法啦

进了这间银行后

真的很少跟家人通电话

妈妈每次打来

都是晚上

我不是在写着Credit Paper

就是刚放工搭地铁的时候

所以都没什么聊到

我想

应该是时候回家了吧

还有

祝爸爸父亲节快乐

好啦

是时候进入梦里寻找你的背影了

I Miss You

Precious Love

Miserable

Well

A long weekend of 3 days

Going to end once I close my eyes

Stayed anxiously in these 3 day due to the housing issue

Parents were chasing me to purchase a house

Found a pricey service apartment

700 square feet with RM 420K

I love the fully furnished feature especially the interior design

Dad & Mom love it too

But Bro claimed that the build up was too small

I almost pay the booking fees 

But in the end I decided to drop my mind

As a finance student

I always emphasize on undervalued & overvalued

Look at the interior design

I inadvertently think about you

I am pretty sure that you will like it too

Can't deny that I would dream of living together with you

Perhaps it's a dream of every men

But still

It was only just a dream

Health condition was getting poorer

Cough and flu viruses started the attack again

I think it was the third attack after I joined the bank

Started to experience headache which I seldom experience previously

Appetite wasn't as good as previously

Would it because of working stress or insufficient sleeping hours???

Not sure

A simple met up with Calix last week

Fortunately

I was still able to meet him though I missed the birthday celebration

Great chat in McDonald

It was always a special conversation when there were only 2 of us

Life

Career

Relationship

Friendship

I really hope for the next gathering

Unfortunately

I wasn't lucky enough to meet Chloe

She text me last week ask for a meet up on the night before her convocation

However

I couldn't make it as I was rushing on a credit paper

Anyway

Congratulation again!!!

Was quite moody tonight

Bought a lot of junk foods

Looking back the old photos in Facebook & Albums

Noticed that we actually missed out a lot

It's almost 3 years

Years and years I am counting down

Instead of asking what have I gained in these years

Perhaps I shall asked what have I missed in these years

And the answer is I missed infinitely

For now

Or at least for the night

I miss the missed

Listening to the old songs

Fields of Gold

And the feeling was indescribable

Just after the Hanoi trip

I think it's time to plan for the next trip

It's time to find the authentic self

Going to reach second half of 2013

And I still have more than 20 days leave

Would probably block the leave on September

Get myself a short & simple back pack trip

Like the old song sound

Fly Me to the Moon

If not fall me to the Fields of Golds

A Miserable Night

A Night of Miss the Missed

A Night of Misery

Firstly, Secondly & Thirdly

Firstly

Congratulation to Calix for his success of becoming a house owner

My apology for not attending the house warming as promised

Put the blame on the hefty workloads

May everything go smooth

May he likes the iron that we give

Looking forward for the next gathering

Secondly

I am tired with the current working life

I think I was demoralized after a 6 months hectic life

One of the Relationship Manager that I assisted has resigned

Everything were handed over to me

I was overloaded

Boss said he hopes he couldn't get a replacement

He wanted to promote me become the RM

I told him I am not ready yet

And he answered me firmly that I am more than ready and qualified

Everyone in the team was encouraging me to take over the portfolio

How???

I don't know whether there will be any big jump in my salary over the promotion

But I seriously do not want to take any sales target

Think on the flip side

If I do not want to become a RM

Am I going to be an Assistant for the rest my of banking life???

Then what's the purpose I obtained all the qualifications???

I don't know

The one to one session with boss is on Tuesday???

He will sure talk about this

How should I response???

What is my will???

What shall I do???

Who am I???

What am I searching for???

I want a simple life

The life when I was in Hanoi

Thirdly

I like you

I like you for you

Longing for facing the Halong Bay with you

When Saturday Meets Me

Alright

差不多三个星期没有update了

就。。。

找不到mood

最近过得比较轻松

因为在attend三个星期的training

不需要回银行工作

下个星期就是最后一个星期的training了

过后就直接飞去Hanoi

Hmmm

说到training

Attend过这么多Training

每个training里都至少会有一个自以为是的trainee

不断的表现自己

别人回答问题错了

就会大大声的纠正人家

看到这种人我真的很sienz

也罢

这个世界就是什么人都有

I Can't Change the World

今年没有回去扫墓

因为Training有考试

还有Hanoi Tour

妈妈很想见我

可是没办法

It's a Sad Case

上个星期爸爸下来KL

带我去喝喜酒

也有带他去了很多他想去的地方

Hush Puppies

The Loaf

Tapper's

Subway

哈哈

他就是一个对种种生意都感兴趣的人

就连在Subway也要看Subway的纸杯是哪家供应

对The Loaf印上自己名字的Tissue也可以有一堆Comments

哈哈

As Usual

我们那两天的话题都离不开股票

不错不错

上个星期去看了新兵正传II

自从上次看了第一集后有给这部电影吸引到

就

当兵的题材

真的让我回想起9年前国民服务的那段日子

虽然只有短短的三个月

但是那段回忆永远都在心里

Basically

国民服务的Training

跟在那部电影所看到的差不多一样

只是少了Rifles和Grenade Training而已

我很喜欢那三个月的日子

没有烦恼

因为所有东西都已经给人家安排好

我不需要想今天醒来要做什么

我也不需要想午餐晚餐要吃什么

只是跟着指示做就对了

想念那时侯一身打仗装

爬了两个小时的森林

自己Set Up Camp

自己煮饭吃

想念那时侯每天五点傍晚

在橡胶园跑步的日子

是很好锻炼意志力的活动

想念那时侯Camp里晚上冷冷的空气

每晚11点准时睡觉

一觉睡天亮的感觉最好不过

Well

这一切都是回忆了

Save在Memory里

Forever & Ever

哈哈

现在的生活也蛮有规律的

每晚到了11点嘴巴就会开了

还是一样

睡眠时间还是要7个小时

睡够7个小时我就自然醒

这种感觉还蛮好的

咖啡还是照样喝

Credit还是一样照做

股票还以一样照看

歌还是一样照唱

我们的距离

还是一样

So Close and yet So Far

这样的Feel也好

至少让我觉得没有什么冲突

乖乖的

静静的

老实说

我始终还是觉得我们是Two of a Kind

真的

Wira & Wirawati