The Earth of Golds

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Untitled

好像好久没有上来这里了

真的是好久好久了

A Week After

终于

26岁了

今年的生日过得不错

一群朋友

在Tanjung Sepat

吃吃当地的美食

海鲜

芒果

梅菜包

咖啡

百香果

再一次去了东禅诗

规模变得更大了

看到四处都挂着很有意思的佛理

也发现自己好久没有接触到佛法了

心里面不断的哼着小时候在佛学会

一首可爱的佛曲

“菩萨

保佑

保佑我

平安的当和尚”

看这那些佛理

想想

到底我几时才学会放下呢？？？

东禅诗后

继续在Yen Ting家

Domino Pizza

1-300-888-333

Sushi

Cheese Cake

4位女生荣升雀圣

而我

则让The Edge陪伴着

不错不错

我很享受那一晚

没有烦恼

第天二早上

还有我最喜欢的Big Breakfast + Cappuccino

很可惜的是

时间

永远无法停留在6月22日

今年收到3份生日礼物

风车

让我转转运

Power Bank

让我电一电

G2000

让我帅一帅

Special Thanks to

Cin Lo

Yen Ting

Yun Yi

Sheau Torng

Shiang Chi

Andri

Pui Sin

Evian

9月想Block一个3个星期的假

好想一个人飞出国

Bali

Bangkok

又或者去Batu Pahat找Calix

也不知道可以不可以实现到

毕竟手上的流动资金好像有点问题

因为最近看中了一只股

想奋身下去

工作上没有很顺利

老板

还有另外一个RM辞职了

看来

这个Team就快散了

一直以来

我都很喜欢这个Team

因为我觉得它是SME 3个Team里

最有Team Work的一个Team

我尊重老板的决定

因为我知道他自己也很辛苦

才发现

他之前死命帮我追Confirmation Letter

还有Push我上位

就是要在他临走前帮我铺好我的Career Path

是我自己不争气

算了吧

希望以后还有机会跟他一起工作

谢谢

今天过到很颓废

没有回银行工作

没有喝到咖啡

一整天

就是吃还有睡

无意间

在电脑里发现一些很旧很旧的小说

选了一个来看

“十年的你”

感觉上

好像工作狂的日子比较适合我

同事们都说

再这样狂下去

我肯定找不到女朋友

突然想到Calix的一句话

金土

找个人来爱吧

其实

我找到了啊

可是她不爱我

要我怎样？？？

我也没办法阿

哈哈哈

庆幸的是

不再像以前那样执着

不再因为爱而失眠

真正的学会了大方

妳开心就好

不管妳感受到感受不到

我一直都在

只要能够对妳好

我都会做到
哈哈哈

明明就不喜欢牵手

P/S: 既然明明不喜欢牵手

那就不要逼他牵咯

哈哈哈

A Friend Who Was 1 Day Younger Than Me

We are Beach Boy & Beach Girls from Terengganu

Thanks for the Companion, Especially in this 3 Years

Sunday, June 16, 2013

A Week Before

终于

在这间银行6个月了

刚收到Confirmation Letter

过了Probation Period

有点失望

因为信里面写着No Change in Employment Criteria

也就是说

薪水还是一样

那天老板在追HR的Confirmation Letter时

还Send了Email给大老板

推荐我升职

结果大老板安排了和我一对一的见面

很奇怪的是

我既然和大老板说

我还没有准备

听到我说我需要再多一点的时间来磨练

他也OK了

说我还年青

不需要勉强自己

很感谢老板的推荐

还有他Pass给我的那个3千8百万的Case

想一想

如果我真的升职的话

我应该是创下银行的记录了

一个最快上位的ARM

也许

我的一声No让他失望了

可是我真的累了

目前的状况是

拿着一份薪水

打两份工

老板暂时还请不到人

所以现在

助理是我

经理也是我

有时候真的会做到和Dulan

可是手还是不停的做

下个月的一对一Session

我一定会要求加薪

不然

我想我应该也顶不了多久了

真的累了

很快的

6月过了一半

再多一个星期就Officially26岁了

感慨一下

今年的生日愿望还是跟3年前的一样

就是知道是不可能实现的

所以才把它放在生日愿望里

等待奇迹的出现

希望今年会收到一张生日卡

一张真心诚意

简简单单的生日卡

不懂几时开始

每年一到了生日

就会很Miserable

老实说

6月22这个日期真的很美

下个星期的今天是怎样的呢？？？

我不知道

26岁了

还有很多很多东西还没有做

还有很多很多地方还没有去

唯一的成就就是在股票投资赚了一点点的钱

我终算没有白费在MMU3年的心血

我想要飞了

9月

让我Block一个3个星期的假吧

刚才收到妈妈的SMS

她说8月是榴莲季节

叫我Balik Kampung

尝试种种的榴莲

我知道她是想我了

没办法啦

进了这间银行后

真的很少跟家人通电话

妈妈每次打来

都是晚上

我不是在写着Credit Paper

就是刚放工搭地铁的时候

所以都没什么聊到

我想

应该是时候回家了吧

还有

祝爸爸父亲节快乐

好啦

是时候进入梦里寻找你的背影了

I Miss You

Precious Love

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Miserable

Well

A long weekend of 3 days

Going to end once I close my eyes

Stayed anxiously in these 3 day due to the housing issue

Parents were chasing me to purchase a house

Found a pricey service apartment

700 square feet with RM 420K

I love the fully furnished feature especially the interior design

Dad & Mom love it too

But Bro claimed that the build up was too small

I almost pay the booking fees

But in the end I decided to drop my mind

As a finance student

I always emphasize on undervalued & overvalued

Look at the interior design

I inadvertently think about you

I am pretty sure that you will like it too

Can't deny that I would dream of living together with you

Perhaps it's a dream of every men

But still

It was only just a dream

Health condition was getting poorer

Cough and flu viruses started the attack again

I think it was the third attack after I joined the bank

Started to experience headache which I seldom experience previously

Appetite wasn't as good as previously

Would it because of working stress or insufficient sleeping hours???

Not sure

A simple met up with Calix last week

Fortunately

I was still able to meet him though I missed the birthday celebration

Great chat in McDonald

It was always a special conversation when there were only 2 of us

Life

Career

Relationship

Friendship

I really hope for the next gathering

Unfortunately

I wasn't lucky enough to meet Chloe

She text me last week ask for a meet up on the night before her convocation

However

I couldn't make it as I was rushing on a credit paper

Anyway

Congratulation again!!!

Was quite moody tonight

Bought a lot of junk foods

Looking back the old photos in Facebook & Albums

Noticed that we actually missed out a lot

It's almost 3 years

Years and years I am counting down

Instead of asking what have I gained in these years

Perhaps I shall asked what have I missed in these years

And the answer is I missed infinitely

For now

Or at least for the night

I miss the missed

Listening to the old songs

Fields of Gold

And the feeling was indescribable

Just after the Hanoi trip

I think it's time to plan for the next trip

It's time to find the authentic self

Going to reach second half of 2013

And I still have more than 20 days leave

Would probably block the leave on September

Get myself a short & simple back pack trip

Like the old song sound

Fly Me to the Moon

If not fall me to the Fields of Golds

A Miserable Night

A Night of Miss the Missed

A Night of Misery

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Firstly, Secondly & Thirdly

Firstly

Congratulation to Calix for his success of becoming a house owner

My apology for not attending the house warming as promised

Put the blame on the hefty workloads

May everything go smooth

May he likes the iron that we give

Looking forward for the next gathering

Secondly

I am tired with the current working life

I think I was demoralized after a 6 months hectic life

One of the Relationship Manager that I assisted has resigned

Everything were handed over to me

I was overloaded

Boss said he hopes he couldn't get a replacement

He wanted to promote me become the RM

I told him I am not ready yet

And he answered me firmly that I am more than ready and qualified

Everyone in the team was encouraging me to take over the portfolio

How???

I don't know whether there will be any big jump in my salary over the promotion

But I seriously do not want to take any sales target

Think on the flip side

If I do not want to become a RM

Am I going to be an Assistant for the rest my of banking life???

Then what's the purpose I obtained all the qualifications???

I don't know

The one to one session with boss is on Tuesday???

He will sure talk about this

How should I response???

What is my will???

What shall I do???

Who am I???

What am I searching for???

I want a simple life

The life when I was in Hanoi

Thirdly

I like you

I like you for you

Longing for facing the Halong Bay with you

Saturday, March 30, 2013

When Saturday Meets Me

Alright

差不多三个星期没有update了

就。。。

找不到mood

Finally, I am Down

Finally

I am down

Coughing

Fever of 37.70'C

That's what the doctor claimed to be a high fever

Despite a 0.70'C variance with normal body temperature

And I am not sure whether she is trying to scare me

3 coconut juice

2 large size 100 Plus

1 bottle of cough syrup

And I am not sure whether I have fully recovered

At least not for the cough

As it usually takes me a recovery period of more than a month

I got the very first MC in my 2.5 years working life for Friday

And yet I did not utilize well the sicking holiday

There were plenty of works

And I don't really feel sick / tired except a little headache

Headache

Fever

Coughing

Credit

Antibiotics
I hate to say this
But still

Fuck My Life!!!

Truly

Fuck My Life!!!

Whenever the sickness came

I just couldn't stop myself from recall the stories

Especially the dream on Wednesday night

I am not sure whether you are thinking of me or I am thinking of you

It coulb be the latter

And I am pretty sure that I remembered every single moment in the dream

The goodbye moment was indeed an unusual one

I turned back

Hoping to ask for a stay

But yet it was replaced with a simple goodbye and a simple take care

Perhaps this is how it ended so well

Alright

After a Fuck of My Life

Look at the cherish moment during the appreciation night

KVN

The Earth of Golds

Untitled

A Week After

A Week Before

Miserable

Firstly, Secondly & Thirdly

When Saturday Meets Me

Finally, I am Down

The Dreamer

Our Dream is Running

Share Your Dreams

Sky of Memories

Another Perfect World

Thanks for Coming Into My Dream

End of My Dream