K.T. in K.T.

Yeah

I am back to K.T.

I need to admit that it's definitely not a good time to take an earlier CNY leave

Few big cases exploded

Had a hectic life and I spent more than 14 hours per day in the Bank recently

Anyhow

Issues remained unsolved 

Got a salary adjustment

Not up to my expectation but within my satisfactory threshold

At least my efforts were not wasted

Got a Tier 1 rating by management too

So hope for a big fat bonus

Yeah

I work for money

As promised

I ain't gonna let myself lose to it anymore

Bought a house in K.L.

Under construction with 3 years completion period

Yeah

Finally I am in the path of becoming an ordinary person

Contravene to the previous Thor

Full of dreams

As I always said

You may dream in my melody

Perhaps because of aging

I don't even have the CNY mood

I guessed that emotion started a year ago

So

I owned a car

And I owned a house (in the air)

Career wise I think I am there

Perhaps it's time to settle down

Get a girl friend

Enter into a relationship and if we both were in the same world

I shall then call for a bill

So

Becoming an ordinary person

And I am not sure if this is what I want

They said this year is a good year for a Rabbit

I hope for the best

It's CNY and it's time for a gathering

And 

Thought of a sudden

Muar-ian

It has been years I did not face to face wish you all Happy CNY

No worry

You all would never be forgotten

In The Earth of Golds

Happy Chinese New Year

11/11/2013

KT in KT

Kim Thor in Kuala Terengganu

Yeah

I am back to Terengganu for a period of 3 weeks

Many were envy for my extra long block leave 

I would only say

3 weeks block leave does not really compensate my mental injuries for the past 1 year

Initial plan was to get a short trip to the neighborhood countries

But the plan wasn't materialized as I do not know where shall I go

Or perhaps I need some pull factors from someone which has yet to appear in my life

It will be a period of 3 weeks and I have inclined to focus on share investment

Went to 2 stockbroking firms last weeks and gain a lot of insights from those laymen's investors

It has been a long period where I have not pumped some extra cash into the stock market

It was so unusual but I have yet to find any penny shares which were undervalued and yet trigger my interest 

Ooohhh

This is definitely not good

Hopefully I am able to spot few hidden gems and accumulate my wealth together with the team of friends 

There was a newly opened coffee shop in Terengganu

Went there twice

The first time I wanted to order a Flat White but it wasn't available

Hence, I ordered an almost similar Cappuccino

They were using the No. 1 coffee brand in Italy - Lavazza

Nice name but the Barista's skill was relatively poor

The coffee's taste was so diluted

The second time I ordered Cappuccino with double shots and less milk foam

The Barista then came to ask for feedback and I told her the coffee tasted sour

She then unraveled that the reason was due to the double shots 

I then said nothing but in my heart I was shaking my head

Hello, I am a frequent coffee drinker and please don't boo me

Well, I guessed my expectation towards coffee taste has gained up another level

Thus far there were only 2 coffees shop which were able to satisfied my requirements

Illy Espressamente & Espresso Lab

I went to these 2 cafes quite often but regretly

I still yet to have the chance to bring someone special there

Sit down and share the Moment When Love is Foamed

So, waiting & waiting & waiting

Last night remained awake until 3 a.m.

I then went to my own FB page

Scrolled down and read all the old posts dated few years back

Looking at those comments which have made me smile so naturally

The helps, fights, jokes, wishes and etc

Seriously

I miss the moments very much

Went for Karaoke last week

The voice on that particular night was relatively stable

Felt happy that I was able to fetch those high tones persistently

Recently fall in love with Soda Green's songs

Last time used to sing無眠小時後
Recently learn to sing我好想你Honestly, the song was quite difficult to sing but was deemed meaningfulAt least it touches my feeling nowYeahI am missing you at this hourFrom my heartThe two of a kindAnd I am always waiting for the time to officially duet on你被寫在我的歌里
See you in my dream laterAll the best for the brand new working weekA sincere thank you from me

6.

Time Flies and It Hits 6 So Soon

20/10/2013

Wishing You a Happy Birthday

A Great Purple Sunday

Untitled

好像好久没有上来这里了

真的是好久好久了

最近的我

真的过得很不好

这1个月里面发生了很多很多事情

我的Team里面

从原有的9个人

走剩4个人

每个人看见我

都告诉我说还以为你的Team是最稳的一个Team

对

起初我也是这么看

可是

也好啦

走了5个人

他们都往不同的方向

都是爬上更高的位置

昨晚部门帮老板搞Fair Well

大老板要Team里面的每个人

轮流说出对老板的意见

我说

No Worry

I Will Be Taking Over Your Role to Play the Music for Level 21 Every 7 am

对

他最让我佩服的就是

每天最早到银行的就是他

每天的7点到8点45分就会播着他手机里Jazz Music

那一晚

我真的喝了很多

半醉半醒

我看见很多带面具的Fucker

接下来的日子会很难走

其实也已经开始走着了

4月开始

从第一个RM的离开

从我接手她的Portfolio

所有的东西都是我一个人做

没有ARM帮

接下来的Team Manager Meeting

Reporting

我也不懂谁会去Attend

有可能是我

可能不是

这一个月

Attend过的Meeting

都是在里面给人家插

Corporate World就是这样

之前还说不需要担心

至少还有老板帮我顶

算了吧

他们说10月会起我薪水

我听着先

到时候如果来一个5%

我会用行动告诉你

我不需要你的施舍

这个Organization

坦白说

我也没有很高的Expectation

坦白说

之前会这么努力

完全是因为直属上司

因为他的确是我的Role Model

我也很肯定

他真的有帮我争取过

有时我会很Negative

想想说

当初加入时

应该准时9点进工准时6点放工

写Credit Paper时

应该Copy & Paste

说到Financial Analysis

我应该扮白痴

别人称赞我的CCP & CSA时

应该告诉他们我是作弊才Pass的

对

我不是一个Positive Thinker

最近的睡眠也不怎么好了

每到5点就会醒

一醒来想到的东西就是工作

妈妈近期都很少打电话过来

也许她知道我在忙吧

爸爸的Whatapps也没什么回

而且

他每次Whatapps的第一句就是

Hi...Busy??? Meeting???

妈的

我真的是在过着一个人不像人的生活

Please Put in My Name

If Only You Have a Death Note

A Week After

终于

26岁了

今年的生日过得不错

一群朋友

在Tanjung Sepat

吃吃当地的美食

海鲜

芒果

梅菜包

咖啡

百香果

再一次去了东禅诗

规模变得更大了

看到四处都挂着很有意思的佛理

也发现自己好久没有接触到佛法了

心里面不断的哼着小时候在佛学会

一首可爱的佛曲

“菩萨

保佑

保佑我

平安的当和尚”

看这那些佛理

想想

到底我几时才学会放下呢？？？

东禅诗后

继续在Yen Ting家

Domino Pizza

1-300-888-333

Sushi

Cheese Cake

4位女生荣升雀圣

 而我

则让The Edge陪伴着

不错不错

我很享受那一晚

没有烦恼

第天二早上

还有我最喜欢的Big Breakfast + Cappuccino

很可惜的是

时间

永远无法停留在6月22日

今年收到3份生日礼物

风车

让我转转运

Power Bank

让我电一电

G2000

让我帅一帅

Special Thanks to 

Cin Lo 

Yen Ting

Yun Yi

Sheau Torng

Shiang Chi 

Andri

Pui Sin

Evian

9月想Block一个3个星期的假

好想一个人飞出国

Bali

Bangkok

又或者去Batu Pahat找Calix

也不知道可以不可以实现到

毕竟手上的流动资金好像有点问题

因为最近看中了一只股

想奋身下去

工作上没有很顺利

老板

还有另外一个RM辞职了

看来

这个Team就快散了

一直以来

我都很喜欢这个Team

因为我觉得它是SME 3个Team里

最有Team Work的一个Team

我尊重老板的决定

因为我知道他自己也很辛苦

才发现

他之前死命帮我追Confirmation Letter

还有Push我上位

就是要在他临走前帮我铺好我的Career Path

是我自己不争气

算了吧

希望以后还有机会跟他一起工作

谢谢

今天过到很颓废

没有回银行工作

没有喝到咖啡

一整天

就是吃还有睡

无意间

在电脑里发现一些很旧很旧的小说

选了一个来看

“十年的你”

感觉上

好像工作狂的日子比较适合我

同事们都说

再这样狂下去

我肯定找不到女朋友

突然想到Calix的一句话

金土

找个人来爱吧

其实

我找到了啊

可是她不爱我

要我怎样？？？

我也没办法阿

哈哈哈

庆幸的是

不再像以前那样执着

不再因为爱而失眠

真正的学会了大方

妳开心就好

不管妳感受到感受不到

我一直都在

只要能够对妳好

我都会做到
哈哈哈

明明就不喜欢牵手

P/S: 既然明明不喜欢牵手

那就不要逼他牵咯

哈哈哈

A Friend Who Was 1 Day Younger Than Me

We are Beach Boy & Beach Girls from Terengganu 

Thanks for the Companion, Especially in this 3 Years

A Week Before

终于

在这间银行6个月了

刚收到Confirmation Letter

过了Probation Period

有点失望

因为信里面写着No Change in Employment Criteria 

也就是说

薪水还是一样

那天老板在追HR的Confirmation Letter时

还Send了Email给大老板

推荐我升职

结果大老板安排了和我一对一的见面

很奇怪的是

我既然和大老板说

我还没有准备

听到我说我需要再多一点的时间来磨练

他也OK了

说我还年青

不需要勉强自己

很感谢老板的推荐

还有他Pass给我的那个3千8百万的Case

想一想

如果我真的升职的话

我应该是创下银行的记录了

一个最快上位的ARM

也许

我的一声No让他失望了

可是我真的累了

目前的状况是

拿着一份薪水

打两份工

老板暂时还请不到人

所以现在

助理是我

经理也是我

有时候真的会做到和Dulan

可是手还是不停的做

下个月的一对一Session

我一定会要求加薪

不然

我想我应该也顶不了多久了

真的累了

很快的

6月过了一半

再多一个星期就Officially26岁了

感慨一下

今年的生日愿望还是跟3年前的一样

就是知道是不可能实现的

所以才把它放在生日愿望里

等待奇迹的出现

希望今年会收到一张生日卡

一张真心诚意

简简单单的生日卡

不懂几时开始

每年一到了生日

就会很Miserable

老实说

6月22这个日期真的很美

下个星期的今天是怎样的呢？？？

我不知道

26岁了

还有很多很多东西还没有做

还有很多很多地方还没有去

唯一的成就就是在股票投资赚了一点点的钱

我终算没有白费在MMU3年的心血

我想要飞了

9月

让我Block一个3个星期的假吧

刚才收到妈妈的SMS

她说8月是榴莲季节

叫我Balik Kampung

尝试种种的榴莲

我知道她是想我了

没办法啦

进了这间银行后

真的很少跟家人通电话

妈妈每次打来

都是晚上

我不是在写着Credit Paper

就是刚放工搭地铁的时候

所以都没什么聊到

我想

应该是时候回家了吧

还有

祝爸爸父亲节快乐

好啦

是时候进入梦里寻找你的背影了

I Miss You

Precious Love

Miserable

Well

A long weekend of 3 days

Going to end once I close my eyes

Stayed anxiously in these 3 day due to the housing issue

Parents were chasing me to purchase a house

Found a pricey service apartment

700 square feet with RM 420K

I love the fully furnished feature especially the interior design

Dad & Mom love it too

But Bro claimed that the build up was too small

I almost pay the booking fees 

But in the end I decided to drop my mind

As a finance student

I always emphasize on undervalued & overvalued

Look at the interior design

I inadvertently think about you

I am pretty sure that you will like it too

Can't deny that I would dream of living together with you

Perhaps it's a dream of every men

But still

It was only just a dream

Health condition was getting poorer

Cough and flu viruses started the attack again

I think it was the third attack after I joined the bank

Started to experience headache which I seldom experience previously

Appetite wasn't as good as previously

Would it because of working stress or insufficient sleeping hours???

Not sure

A simple met up with Calix last week

Fortunately

I was still able to meet him though I missed the birthday celebration

Great chat in McDonald

It was always a special conversation when there were only 2 of us

Life

Career

Relationship

Friendship

I really hope for the next gathering

Unfortunately

I wasn't lucky enough to meet Chloe

She text me last week ask for a meet up on the night before her convocation

However

I couldn't make it as I was rushing on a credit paper

Anyway

Congratulation again!!!

Was quite moody tonight

Bought a lot of junk foods

Looking back the old photos in Facebook & Albums

Noticed that we actually missed out a lot

It's almost 3 years

Years and years I am counting down

Instead of asking what have I gained in these years

Perhaps I shall asked what have I missed in these years

And the answer is I missed infinitely

For now

Or at least for the night

I miss the missed

Listening to the old songs

Fields of Gold

And the feeling was indescribable

Just after the Hanoi trip

I think it's time to plan for the next trip

It's time to find the authentic self

Going to reach second half of 2013

And I still have more than 20 days leave

Would probably block the leave on September

Get myself a short & simple back pack trip

Like the old song sound

Fly Me to the Moon

If not fall me to the Fields of Golds

A Miserable Night

A Night of Miss the Missed

A Night of Misery