Sunday, May 26, 2013


A long weekend of 3 days
Going to end once I close my eyes
Stayed anxiously in these 3 day due to the housing issue
Parents were chasing me to purchase a house
Found a pricey service apartment
700 square feet with RM 420K
I love the fully furnished feature especially the interior design
Dad & Mom love it too
But Bro claimed that the build up was too small
I almost pay the booking fees 
But in the end I decided to drop my mind
As a finance student
I always emphasize on undervalued & overvalued
Look at the interior design
I inadvertently think about you
I am pretty sure that you will like it too
Can't deny that I would dream of living together with you
Perhaps it's a dream of every men
But still
It was only just a dream

Health condition was getting poorer
Cough and flu viruses started the attack again
I think it was the third attack after I joined the bank
Started to experience headache which I seldom experience previously
Appetite wasn't as good as previously
Would it because of working stress or insufficient sleeping hours???
Not sure

A simple met up with Calix last week
I was still able to meet him though I missed the birthday celebration
Great chat in McDonald
It was always a special conversation when there were only 2 of us
I really hope for the next gathering

I wasn't lucky enough to meet Chloe
She text me last week ask for a meet up on the night before her convocation
I couldn't make it as I was rushing on a credit paper
Congratulation again!!!

Was quite moody tonight
Bought a lot of junk foods
Looking back the old photos in Facebook & Albums
Noticed that we actually missed out a lot
It's almost 3 years
Years and years I am counting down
Instead of asking what have I gained in these years
Perhaps I shall asked what have I missed in these years
And the answer is I missed infinitely
For now
Or at least for the night
I miss the missed
Listening to the old songs
Fields of Gold
And the feeling was indescribable

Just after the Hanoi trip
I think it's time to plan for the next trip
It's time to find the authentic self
Going to reach second half of 2013
And I still have more than 20 days leave
Would probably block the leave on September
Get myself a short & simple back pack trip
Like the old song sound
Fly Me to the Moon
If not fall me to the Fields of Golds

A Miserable Night
A Night of Miss the Missed
A Night of Misery

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Firstly, Secondly & Thirdly

Congratulation to Calix for his success of becoming a house owner
My apology for not attending the house warming as promised
Put the blame on the hefty workloads
May everything go smooth
May he likes the iron that we give
Looking forward for the next gathering

I am tired with the current working life
I think I was demoralized after a 6 months hectic life
One of the Relationship Manager that I assisted has resigned
Everything were handed over to me
I was overloaded
Boss said he hopes he couldn't get a replacement
He wanted to promote me become the RM
I told him I am not ready yet
And he answered me firmly that I am more than ready and qualified
Everyone in the team was encouraging me to take over the portfolio
I don't know whether there will be any big jump in my salary over the promotion
But I seriously do not want to take any sales target
Think on the flip side
If I do not want to become a RM
Am I going to be an Assistant for the rest my of banking life???
Then what's the purpose I obtained all the qualifications???
I don't know
The one to one session with boss is on Tuesday???
He will sure talk about this
How should I response???
What is my will???
What shall I do???
Who am I???
What am I searching for???
I want a simple life
The life when I was in Hanoi

I like you
I like you for you
Longing for facing the Halong Bay with you