Today's morning have a Ching Ming session. It's the same tradition and I did what I did for every year. May those in another world live their happy life there.....
Just now have a twice drinking sessions with secondary school classmates. Met with some ex-colleagues from Dynabytes Computer. Feel kinda happy to know they are doing well.....
Well, what about the chatting with the old classmates??? Kinda moody after the chatting session. Do I conscious with what I want??? Definitely yes. But do I chase for what I want??? No. Why??? Because I am aware that in this world, when the thing is not yours, then it's not yours. Don't ask why, it's just a natural mechanic. Since I realized that, then what am I doing now??? I didn't chase for it and I console myself that just let the fate to decide whatever the result is. However, am I really let the fate to decide??? In fact, I am not. I am just unconscious that I am actually waiting for it to reach what I am expecting and what I am hoping for. In other words, I am holding a hope and hoping that the outcome will be what I wish to be. Anyway, no one know whether I am that lucky or not.....
Every time, when I am here, at this moment, I will always have this kind of feeling. It's hot here but I feel the cold. But too bad, the cold don't comfort me but it's striking me. I also don't know why. Maybe because I am afraid of going back to the reality and then the feeling is auto generate. Or maybe there were something happened here as the same time previously and it granted me the old cold feeling. It seems like I have change to become another person. Previously, my blog don't sound like this and previously, the blog is more to happy memories. But now, it has changed. Am I the one who change it??? Or I am the one who being changed by it??? Don't know.....
Fong Li, a ride with an accompany means nothing. Just like what you said, a photo doesn't mean anything. Just a word has awaken me that I am in fact living in an unconscious state where I thought I care for nothing but in fact, it's number two.....
I Feel Cold Tonight
And The Cold Awaken Me That
I Miss You So So Much
And The Cold Awaken Me That
I Miss You So So Much
2 comments:
maybe all because we are from a small town which full of repoire that can't find it at other place.
Hmmm, maybe gua, I also don't know~~~
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